今晚是第二晚了！自从毕业晚宴后，当我再听回 “ 那些年 ” 这首歌时，我脑海里忽然飘出一个人的名字也很想他。而且也幻想些不可能会发生的事。我到底怎么了，真的好烦。还有这种情形到底会到什么时候好想摆脱，不过另一方面我也想这会成为事实。我好想他也拥有和我一样的想法然后会所行动。不过他若有此意早就该有所行动何必要拖拖拉拉。因为我们今年同班一年也参加同一个社团而且他也拥有我的手机号码，要说的话早就说了机会多的是。算了吧，不切实际的想法还是趁早把他忘了要不然到最后崩溃是我自己。haiz ~
2011年12月24日星期六
2011年12月22日星期四
今天是毕业晚会！
之前买衣服时想到她们该不会穿太隆重和华丽的衣服，那里知道我猜错了！她们不只穿得漂亮还化妆及整发了，还好我穿得还可以也在下午去整了个发型。 不然难以想象我和她们那种格格不入的样子。到是有一个她穿的让我完全吓了一大跳，她衣服我还可以接受但是就唯独她的法型我完全无法接受。她整得让她整体看起来像啊姨一样，卷卷的烫发、简简单单的白色有带点带土气的娃娃鞋和一身白色或有点米色的半长袖的裙，可真的有点吓死人。
女生须准备一个多小时才能出门可是男生顶多只须半小时就可以准备好了。可是在现场你会发现男生穿得比女生随便，有些的衣着完全是随性的。我看春安穿的是件普通的衬衫而且还有一个穿超过膝盖点的短裤吧了！起码也穿整点齐点也配合下场面嘛。
本来是想带相机的可因包包太小放不进所以遗留在车里。是有点可惜，可是也有点庆幸的是我不用到处拍照可以做静静。不然像中五毕业晚会，拍也拍的不清不楚而且又跑来跑去去找人一起照相挺烦的。
这次晚会还算过得还算可以，没有高兴也没有不开心的。可是还蛮寂寞的，朋友们都各自忙几乎都忘了我的存在。而且我所希望的事又没发生好伤心哦！
被吓倒的是钊钦他竟然有去，之前听说他不要去还委托人帮他拿东西那里知道他会去。说真的我不是不爽他，只是有时说话太没经过大脑，不过他直话直说的格性我满欣赏的。说到他就连想到 ernie ，他真的有时让我气到暴让人都快要讨厌他了。他也不会监讨一下自己好像钊钦。其实我也不知道钊钦有没有监讨过自己，只是觉得有时他自己会察觉到让后道歉。
今天的表演我几乎都唱错词又跑音我想文山一定都听到吧！他唱的那么好又稳肯定听得出，真是丢脸啊！不过我相信他，他是一个不会说人事非的人，所以肯定不会把我唱的那么烂的事告诉人。而且他是那种静静又乖乖的那种男生，是个好男生哦！（不要误会我喜欢他哟！）
晚宴晚时将近十一点半，过后就在他酒店外的海旁吹风。朋友本来说让她吹三个字那里知道她不舍得会，一留变接近十二点了。她还是不舍得走，我就叫她干脆住到龙宫去。哈哈！我啰里啰唆的逼得她无可奈何才乖乖回家。
回到家，妈妈不让我洗头，可是我还是忍不住洗了起来。我难以想象不洗头的话要我怎么入眠啊！头发硬硬地又放了满多的发夹，叫我怎么睡呢！所以一不做二不休就直截了当当场洗了头发。所以现在上网等待头发干！现在是时候了，晚安！
之前买衣服时想到她们该不会穿太隆重和华丽的衣服，那里知道我猜错了！她们不只穿得漂亮还化妆及整发了，还好我穿得还可以也在下午去整了个发型。 不然难以想象我和她们那种格格不入的样子。到是有一个她穿的让我完全吓了一大跳，她衣服我还可以接受但是就唯独她的法型我完全无法接受。她整得让她整体看起来像啊姨一样，卷卷的烫发、简简单单的白色有带点带土气的娃娃鞋和一身白色或有点米色的半长袖的裙，可真的有点吓死人。
女生须准备一个多小时才能出门可是男生顶多只须半小时就可以准备好了。可是在现场你会发现男生穿得比女生随便，有些的衣着完全是随性的。我看春安穿的是件普通的衬衫而且还有一个穿超过膝盖点的短裤吧了！起码也穿整点齐点也配合下场面嘛。
本来是想带相机的可因包包太小放不进所以遗留在车里。是有点可惜，可是也有点庆幸的是我不用到处拍照可以做静静。不然像中五毕业晚会，拍也拍的不清不楚而且又跑来跑去去找人一起照相挺烦的。
这次晚会还算过得还算可以，没有高兴也没有不开心的。可是还蛮寂寞的，朋友们都各自忙几乎都忘了我的存在。而且我所希望的事又没发生好伤心哦！
被吓倒的是钊钦他竟然有去，之前听说他不要去还委托人帮他拿东西那里知道他会去。说真的我不是不爽他，只是有时说话太没经过大脑，不过他直话直说的格性我满欣赏的。说到他就连想到 ernie ，他真的有时让我气到暴让人都快要讨厌他了。他也不会监讨一下自己好像钊钦。其实我也不知道钊钦有没有监讨过自己，只是觉得有时他自己会察觉到让后道歉。
今天的表演我几乎都唱错词又跑音我想文山一定都听到吧！他唱的那么好又稳肯定听得出，真是丢脸啊！不过我相信他，他是一个不会说人事非的人，所以肯定不会把我唱的那么烂的事告诉人。而且他是那种静静又乖乖的那种男生，是个好男生哦！（不要误会我喜欢他哟！）
晚宴晚时将近十一点半，过后就在他酒店外的海旁吹风。朋友本来说让她吹三个字那里知道她不舍得会，一留变接近十二点了。她还是不舍得走，我就叫她干脆住到龙宫去。哈哈！我啰里啰唆的逼得她无可奈何才乖乖回家。
回到家，妈妈不让我洗头，可是我还是忍不住洗了起来。我难以想象不洗头的话要我怎么入眠啊！头发硬硬地又放了满多的发夹，叫我怎么睡呢！所以一不做二不休就直截了当当场洗了头发。所以现在上网等待头发干！现在是时候了，晚安！
2011年12月21日星期三
昨天早上，我受到某位朋友的信。她说，“如果有天你发现我不小心做了你认为伤你的心话，我们还是好朋友吧？” 我真的不知怎么回她，唯有忽列了这封短讯。我有和另外一个和她满熟的朋友聊关于她，我朋友说，“自从她来到中六后变得有点自大、骄傲。” 说真的我也觉得她也渐渐变得不再是我认识的她了。由于多年的友谊我一直隔下她所作的一切，可是她好像一直一直都在做些我不知道又伤害我的事，我真的不知该怎么办才好！此外，我另一个不太认识她的朋友说，也许她爱上之前我对他有好感的那个人。 其实就算爱上了或她们拍拖了又怎样，我对他的好感老早就消失，她又不是不知道。（好感不代表我喜欢他哦 ！）其实我会对他产生好感是因为我确乏安全感而且向来我都一直渴望有个哥哥来疼爱及爱护我！可是不惯我拥有了两个认来的哥哥，我们之间的关系还是满满疏远了，哥哥也渐渐变成陌生人。我在想会不会是我的问题呢？我想一定是吧！因为我是个常会对人忽冷忽热的那种人，所以性格有时也阴晴不定，让人难摸透的人。算了吧，要找一个能够完全接受我及抹透我性格的干哥哥也是须有缘份的！
2011年12月19日星期一
Today is the first day i stay at home after exam. When school time we always hope that we can every day stay at home without doing anything. Yet today just start first day, i already fill bored but i think that the day like today only left 2 week only because start January i need start go work.
Today i have phone to 2 nursery to ask for job, one of the nursery go interview tomorrow morning but i decide not going. This is because my father told me that work in nursery very difficult to have holiday if i have emergency thing to do. While i will go tuition center tomorrow to ask and interview. If still cant find job then i will go interview as sales this is my last choice because got job is better no job to do and stay every day at home as lazy worm do nothing like princess.
Now i wan learn song to prepare the performance for my graduation night. I know my key sometimes run away so i wan put more hard work to learn to prevent that day sing wrong key. Haha... or not people cant believe that always sing run key can also be one of the choir member. But now left 1 more day for me to learn well and remember the lyric. My class decide to combine two song which are “ 红蜻蜓 ” and “ 那些年 ” to become “ 那些年的红蜻蜓 ”,
< 那些年的红蜻蜓 > lyric
飞呀 飞呀
看那红色蜻蜓飞在蓝色天空
游戏在风中不断追逐他的梦
天空是永恒的家 大地就是他的王国
飞翔是生活
我们的童年也像追逐成长吹来的风
轻轻地吹着梦想 慢慢地升空
红色的蜻蜓是我小时侯的小小英雄
多希望有一天能和他一起飞
当烦恼愈来愈多 玻璃弹珠愈来愈少
我知道我已慢慢地长大了
红色的蜻蜓曾几何时
也在我岁月慢慢不见了
我们都已经长大 好多梦正在飞
就像童年看到地红色的蜻蜓
我们都已经长大 好多梦还要飞
就像现在心目中红色的蜻蜓
又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美
好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后 故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱着她
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你
紧紧抱着你
我们都已经长大 好多梦正在飞
就像童年看到地红色的蜻蜓
我们都已经长大 好多梦还要飞
As i know they all buy the dress which are very formal and look very nice but i just brought a simple dress which just a bit formal. I scared on that day i am the one who wear the most simplest among the student. But the dress their brought all are very expensive, all almost above RM 150 which i cant afford so much money for the dress which i just wear once. This is kind of waste. I will brought if i can earn much much money because that time i can earn so i can spend as i like. Haha... still duno how is my further but now speak big word... Really hope that i can get better result and got chance study in university.
Today i have phone to 2 nursery to ask for job, one of the nursery go interview tomorrow morning but i decide not going. This is because my father told me that work in nursery very difficult to have holiday if i have emergency thing to do. While i will go tuition center tomorrow to ask and interview. If still cant find job then i will go interview as sales this is my last choice because got job is better no job to do and stay every day at home as lazy worm do nothing like princess.
Now i wan learn song to prepare the performance for my graduation night. I know my key sometimes run away so i wan put more hard work to learn to prevent that day sing wrong key. Haha... or not people cant believe that always sing run key can also be one of the choir member. But now left 1 more day for me to learn well and remember the lyric. My class decide to combine two song which are “ 红蜻蜓 ” and “ 那些年 ” to become “ 那些年的红蜻蜓 ”,
< 那些年的红蜻蜓 > lyric
飞呀 飞呀
看那红色蜻蜓飞在蓝色天空
游戏在风中不断追逐他的梦
天空是永恒的家 大地就是他的王国
飞翔是生活
我们的童年也像追逐成长吹来的风
轻轻地吹着梦想 慢慢地升空
红色的蜻蜓是我小时侯的小小英雄
多希望有一天能和他一起飞
当烦恼愈来愈多 玻璃弹珠愈来愈少
我知道我已慢慢地长大了
红色的蜻蜓曾几何时
也在我岁月慢慢不见了
我们都已经长大 好多梦正在飞
就像童年看到地红色的蜻蜓
我们都已经长大 好多梦还要飞
就像现在心目中红色的蜻蜓
又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美
好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后 故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱着她
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你
紧紧抱着你
我们都已经长大 好多梦正在飞
就像童年看到地红色的蜻蜓
我们都已经长大 好多梦还要飞
As i know they all buy the dress which are very formal and look very nice but i just brought a simple dress which just a bit formal. I scared on that day i am the one who wear the most simplest among the student. But the dress their brought all are very expensive, all almost above RM 150 which i cant afford so much money for the dress which i just wear once. This is kind of waste. I will brought if i can earn much much money because that time i can earn so i can spend as i like. Haha... still duno how is my further but now speak big word... Really hope that i can get better result and got chance study in university.
2011年12月18日星期日
Today very tired and sleepy...
Today i wake around 9 o'clock. After bath, i immediate rush to hospital. While til around 2 something, i started went to tanjung to attend seminar which given by my pengajian am tuition teacher. After seminar finish at 5 i rush back to hospital continued to accompany my grandma.
Finally my scarified got some return which my grandma almost recover and she look well today and also know what is the meaning of hungry. Before that, she almost cant eat anything and will vomit after eating. But the most problem is because of the paracetamol because she is allergic to this medicine so after changing the medicine now she look well. Today she totally not look like a patient and can watch tv too and move here move there. In addition, the greatest happiness is may be tomorrow afternoon she can go home if tonight she din have fever back.
Yesterday my mom sleep at hospital. My grandma tell me she sick than no need go there to accompany her at night because not my mom take care her, oppositely is my grandma take care back here. Beside that, she also blur blur duno how to push the table that for patient use to eat.
Today i came out hospital around 10 pm. After that still need go tesco for buying some daily use. When reach home, my sister tell me that my aunt call me accompany her go eat wedding dinner tomorrow to replace my mom. What the hell... After my exam, i need as robot to do so many thing. All ignored my feeling, how sad i am...
Today my friend invited me to eat steam boat on thusday or friday but now i so tired and cant answer my friend. I have a kind of feeling " lazy " to go anywhere. Now i just wan to stay at home and sleep, eat, online and watch movie only. Other thing and appointment or dating, all i wan to reject and rest peace at home to do my princess. Haha...
Today i wake around 9 o'clock. After bath, i immediate rush to hospital. While til around 2 something, i started went to tanjung to attend seminar which given by my pengajian am tuition teacher. After seminar finish at 5 i rush back to hospital continued to accompany my grandma.
Finally my scarified got some return which my grandma almost recover and she look well today and also know what is the meaning of hungry. Before that, she almost cant eat anything and will vomit after eating. But the most problem is because of the paracetamol because she is allergic to this medicine so after changing the medicine now she look well. Today she totally not look like a patient and can watch tv too and move here move there. In addition, the greatest happiness is may be tomorrow afternoon she can go home if tonight she din have fever back.
Yesterday my mom sleep at hospital. My grandma tell me she sick than no need go there to accompany her at night because not my mom take care her, oppositely is my grandma take care back here. Beside that, she also blur blur duno how to push the table that for patient use to eat.
Today i came out hospital around 10 pm. After that still need go tesco for buying some daily use. When reach home, my sister tell me that my aunt call me accompany her go eat wedding dinner tomorrow to replace my mom. What the hell... After my exam, i need as robot to do so many thing. All ignored my feeling, how sad i am...
Today my friend invited me to eat steam boat on thusday or friday but now i so tired and cant answer my friend. I have a kind of feeling " lazy " to go anywhere. Now i just wan to stay at home and sleep, eat, online and watch movie only. Other thing and appointment or dating, all i wan to reject and rest peace at home to do my princess. Haha...
2011年12月17日星期六
stil need to suffer
Although my exam is past but i still cant get free and hang out with my friend. Beside that, all the appointment that have already made with my friend early need to cancel in last minute. This let me feel some disappointed. While i cant comment anything because my grandma was stay in hospital started Tuesday night. Therefore i need go take care her everyday.
Although in the hospital, there have nurses will take care her but the nurse let us disappointed since the first day my grandma stay in. My grandma press the bell and told the nurse she not feeling well but the nurse just say" o... o... " but din take any action. Therefore she wait more few hour to wait the doctor arrive for the second time checking only tell the doctor. Beside that, the nurse din do in the patient room check and ask the patient whether they feel well or not every hour or past every two three hour. The sodium chloride that common solution that almost every patient will take through a tube and inject in the body ( i duno how to explain, in chinese call 打点滴) . The sodium chloride that i grandma take was finish but the nurse all duno and not go in the patient room hole afternoon to check anything and cause my grandma blood suck in the tube.
Today i just complain to the customer service and the head of the nurse that in charge that department. So afternoon there have few nurse come in the room check and ask how and give pay attention to us. When i complain i already use the nice attitude to speak every word because i got a bit scared and use all broken english because this is my first time to do complain in public and have short circuit, let me feel very shame only. If my aunt at KL can fly come than the nurse sure no face at that time cause she sure use the bad attitude and scold them. But the better is my uncle duno it because my uncle sure put down his work and fly the airplane from sabah immediately and the way he complain is more horrible than my aunt. May be he will straight away go to the office and complain to the head of hospital after scold them. Haha... can u feel it?
Although already complain but we also not feel well to let her stay alone at night so we go to accompany her every night til she can go home. My sister no need go take her so good, she got accuse that she sick and made me cant relax after exam. Almost 1 month holiday, she every day online til very night and sleep til late only wake up continue online without doing other thing. She so relax hole holiday also can sick duno what kind of people she is. Sick ready also dowan eat medicine, look like wan let other people get her bacteria and sick too. Now she sure very happy cause she can stay at home like a princess while all of us bust here busy there so tired. The most worse is she made me need cancel all my appointment and cant let me go out at the time that i can get my back some freedom after few years life like prisoner because of this exam. Furthermore, i need wake up very early in the morning and reach home late and cant eat well for my lunch because i not found any food that can attract me in the cafe of the hospital. There are not much choices and types of food in the cafe and make me lose my appetite afternoon.
Til today my grandma stay hospital almost 4 days but her still not feeling well. I duno how long she only recover. Although she already recover my freedom also not coming back yet cause i need stay at Alma with her to help her do work until she really recover. But i think at that time i need start to work and also cant rest. Now the big problem is i din found any job that suit to me. I have think that, i already need stay at Alma so may be can found job at there and i think my grandma will agree. But i think my grangpa will not agree me to do work at there. And also need face transport problem and work at there also need suffer more compare to here. But i not like staying there because at there i will become 100% prison no freedom at all. Everyday stay at home and doing nothing cant online and no tv to press all the time. This is kind of suffer to me.
Work work work... i need move fast to find job so i can earn more money before i start my uni life...
I also hope that i can get into uni to study with my friend... I do wan finish my study life until form 6, i wan continue my study at lease got degree level... if can i hope i can get more high education
Although in the hospital, there have nurses will take care her but the nurse let us disappointed since the first day my grandma stay in. My grandma press the bell and told the nurse she not feeling well but the nurse just say" o... o... " but din take any action. Therefore she wait more few hour to wait the doctor arrive for the second time checking only tell the doctor. Beside that, the nurse din do in the patient room check and ask the patient whether they feel well or not every hour or past every two three hour. The sodium chloride that common solution that almost every patient will take through a tube and inject in the body ( i duno how to explain, in chinese call 打点滴) . The sodium chloride that i grandma take was finish but the nurse all duno and not go in the patient room hole afternoon to check anything and cause my grandma blood suck in the tube.
Today i just complain to the customer service and the head of the nurse that in charge that department. So afternoon there have few nurse come in the room check and ask how and give pay attention to us. When i complain i already use the nice attitude to speak every word because i got a bit scared and use all broken english because this is my first time to do complain in public and have short circuit, let me feel very shame only. If my aunt at KL can fly come than the nurse sure no face at that time cause she sure use the bad attitude and scold them. But the better is my uncle duno it because my uncle sure put down his work and fly the airplane from sabah immediately and the way he complain is more horrible than my aunt. May be he will straight away go to the office and complain to the head of hospital after scold them. Haha... can u feel it?
Although already complain but we also not feel well to let her stay alone at night so we go to accompany her every night til she can go home. My sister no need go take her so good, she got accuse that she sick and made me cant relax after exam. Almost 1 month holiday, she every day online til very night and sleep til late only wake up continue online without doing other thing. She so relax hole holiday also can sick duno what kind of people she is. Sick ready also dowan eat medicine, look like wan let other people get her bacteria and sick too. Now she sure very happy cause she can stay at home like a princess while all of us bust here busy there so tired. The most worse is she made me need cancel all my appointment and cant let me go out at the time that i can get my back some freedom after few years life like prisoner because of this exam. Furthermore, i need wake up very early in the morning and reach home late and cant eat well for my lunch because i not found any food that can attract me in the cafe of the hospital. There are not much choices and types of food in the cafe and make me lose my appetite afternoon.
Til today my grandma stay hospital almost 4 days but her still not feeling well. I duno how long she only recover. Although she already recover my freedom also not coming back yet cause i need stay at Alma with her to help her do work until she really recover. But i think at that time i need start to work and also cant rest. Now the big problem is i din found any job that suit to me. I have think that, i already need stay at Alma so may be can found job at there and i think my grandma will agree. But i think my grangpa will not agree me to do work at there. And also need face transport problem and work at there also need suffer more compare to here. But i not like staying there because at there i will become 100% prison no freedom at all. Everyday stay at home and doing nothing cant online and no tv to press all the time. This is kind of suffer to me.
Work work work... i need move fast to find job so i can earn more money before i start my uni life...
I also hope that i can get into uni to study with my friend... I do wan finish my study life until form 6, i wan continue my study at lease got degree level... if can i hope i can get more high education
2011年12月15日星期四
考完了！万岁
今天是考试的最后一天，真的好开心！我终于可以从书堆中获得自由了。
等下考完后就和朋友直接从学校出发去 Queensbay 逛街，真的好期待。
考试越接近尾声，那种考试紧张又害怕的心情经然慢慢一点一点地消失了，完全失去了考试时所需的奋斗精神，还好最后考的是比较轻松的试卷。如果是些须要苦读的科目试卷那我就毁了，还好上天庇佑没让难考又难熬的科目或试卷排在最后几天，真是谢天谢地啊！
好了就在此隔“笔”吧！再会
等下考完后就和朋友直接从学校出发去 Queensbay 逛街，真的好期待。
考试越接近尾声，那种考试紧张又害怕的心情经然慢慢一点一点地消失了，完全失去了考试时所需的奋斗精神，还好最后考的是比较轻松的试卷。如果是些须要苦读的科目试卷那我就毁了，还好上天庇佑没让难考又难熬的科目或试卷排在最后几天，真是谢天谢地啊！
好了就在此隔“笔”吧！再会
2011年12月5日星期一
2011年12月1日星期四
Start from 21 November i need to face STPM. This is the greatest pressure i have face because i cant past my exam than the chance i can study in university is very low. Until today i already take four paper and the other four paper i will have between coming two weeks.
Luckily the difficult subject already past today. Now i feel a bit relaxing compare to the time when started exam.
When i wan start exam, i hope that today can come as fast as possible so i can relax more and no need every day studying the book. Beside that, i also hope the time table of exam that i have stick on my wall can tear half so i no need think that there still have a long journey to finish my exam.
Now i hope that 15 December can come as fast as possible so that journey of STPM can come to end point and having more freedom to do the thing i like and hang out all time the with my friend.
Luckily the difficult subject already past today. Now i feel a bit relaxing compare to the time when started exam.
When i wan start exam, i hope that today can come as fast as possible so i can relax more and no need every day studying the book. Beside that, i also hope the time table of exam that i have stick on my wall can tear half so i no need think that there still have a long journey to finish my exam.
Now i hope that 15 December can come as fast as possible so that journey of STPM can come to end point and having more freedom to do the thing i like and hang out all time the with my friend.
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